Some good news :)

So, my last post was written 15 days ago – crazy. Anyway I got my midterm back and thanks to a 5 point curve my (suddenly) generous professor granted us, I scored a 92. Awesome. I also received my lesson plan back with a 48/50 which is awesome. So far I have gotten all A’s in that class . I am very proud of myself! Speaking of grades, I still have a bunch of homework to do. I have something due tomorrow at midnight which should not take long and I also have to get a lesson plan on solar energy cranked out for Monday .

My second placement is going very well. This past Tuesday I took over the class for the first few hours of school. There was a substitute with me but she just chilled . My supervising teacher talked with the sub and told her that I would take over. It went really well! I’m very proud of myself to say the least. The fourth graders are awesome. I do miss my 1st graders though…I need to figure out a time to visit them. Possibly one of the next Wednesdays coming up.

Work is going well too. Wednesday night I was all flustered and not completely with it for some strange reason, but we all have our days. In fact, I work tomorrow from 10 to 7. My weekends are consumed with H&M goodness lol. It’s great that I get as many 8 hour shifts as I do because they may my paycheck look fabulous. I cannot wait for next Friday! Pay day =D.

Well, I just wanted to post a quick update. I am trying to get tired…my body is being stubborn since I accidentally took a 3 hr nap today. Yeah, accidentally. I never heard my alarm go off…I was only supposed to be out for an hour. Oh well!

Midterms can kiss my butt!

I have a midterm tomorrow morning at 9:00 and I still do not feel ready for it. I began studying the other day and have been doing so for the past three hours as well as throughout the day. Nothing is sticking and it is utterly frustrating and I am currently at a loss right now. Not quite sure what to do.

Tomorrow is going to be interesting though – that is for sure. After my class is finished – probably around 12:00 – I have to leave Daytona and pretty much head straight to Sanford for work. H&M opens tomorrow and I am working from 2:00 – 11:00 O.O! Craziness haha. I have eight hour shifts all of the way through the weekend. I’m excited to be working and making money, just a little nervous/apprehensive about all of the time lol! I have to get used to it again. I’m very enthusiastic about it though!

Anyway, I hope my midterm goes well tomorrow. I’m nervous about that as well. I should probably get to sleep soon so I can be rested for the long day ahead of me but I’m not sure if I’ll be able to actually fall asleep. I just hope that I have a miracle and perform well on the test!

Well I am going to studying a bit more and head upstairs to get to sleep. Gotta wake up early to get ready .

Drunk and ALLLL BAHHH MAHHH SELLFFF

Ok, so maybe it isn’t the HEALTHIEST thing to do…but here I am sitting on my bed watching Knocked Up and finishing up my last beer of the night. For some reason, I felt like getting tipsy before I fell asleep tonight. Don’t ask me why. I am sure I will regret it when I wake up in the morning haha! Whatever…I am living in the here and now bitch!

Totally drunken post. How lame of me. Seriously. I should be getting drunk out on the town. Not in the solitary state I am currently in. Whatever. I feels the same lol! I just have no dance floor to go crazy on and no potential hot guys to possibly make out with – something I have not done too much of. (too much of being the key words…LOL!)

ANYWAY, change of topic. I am SO freaking excited about New York!!!! I am also so FREAKING excited about H& (excuse my french) fucking M!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, like seriously. I can’t describe how excited I really am. H&M is freaking amazing and I am so so SO SO SO proud to say that I work for them! The store looks AMAZING! It opens on Tuesday but I don’t work until Thursday. I might pop in on Tuesday though…we shall see…I probably wont though only because of something called EXHAUSTION! Which I have been victim of lately.

Ok, so back to NY. (and some of H&M) I keep on dreaming about the two of them comined! It’s awesome hahaha.

Ok change of subject yet again. I need to get to sleep NOW. Like, this very instant. I have my alarm set for 5:30 in the morning. I doubt I’ll wake up then. Haha. Alright so, goodnight.

Busy!!

I have been so busy this week! It has been exhausting – quite literally so. I am in my full week of internship, which is zooming by, and I have to say that I am incredibly sad that it is coming to an end! I am currently in a first grade class and I absolutely adore my students! They are probably some of the sweetest kids EVER – such a joy. They always put a huge smile on my face and make my day feel so pleasant. I am going to miss them when I head on to fourth grade! Even though I feel wonderful during the day, I have been getting home and all I want to do is go curl up in my bed and sleep. I feel like that from time to time but the past few nights I have not slept well and have just been really feeling the lack of energy. So, for the past two days, I gave in to my exhaustion and took 3 hr naps. Yes, 3 hours. That’s a long time! This has been developing into an unwanted and frustrating sleeping pattern. Luckily, it is 12:30 and I am almost tired enough for sleep but I know that when 6:00am comes rolling around, I will have a hard time waking up. I need to start getting back to sleep again at 11:00.

Anyway, this post is boring me to tears and I am the one who is responsible for writing it. That can never be a good thing. Good night.

October!

So while last nights post was technically made in October…I was still awake from my last day of September and did not really consider the post to have been made in October even though it technically was. Completely pointless sentence. I am just trying to justify two posts in one day. I have to say that I think that October is one of my favorite months for a variety of reasons. Reason number 1: the weather is actually beginning to change this year! It is so nice. Last year we had some cooler weather during the month but it did not last long. And years prior to this one, I was still going to the beach in 90 degree weather through the end of November. So the fact that the weather has been relatively cool two days in a row is a wonderful sign. I should check on the weather channel and make sure it isn’t just because of one of those short-lived cold fronts we typically get. I would be very disappointed if that were the case.

Reason number two: Relating to weather, kind of, it’s fall. Technically, it has been fall for a couple of weeks but the month of October just solidifies that for me. Reason number three: Here come to holidays! Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas! And let’s not forget the New Year! The year where I will FINALLY be graduating from college! So I was thinking last night and speaking with my 15 year old sister. I have technically been in college for SIX…let me repeat…SIX years! I am only 22, but I began college when I was 16 years old. I used to study graphic design and switched my major when I was almost done completing that degree. I am probably going to go back and finish it up eventually. Anyway, so that’s why it has been so long. I graduated high school in 2005 and now will beg graduating college in 2010. I like increments of five. I am so happy that those are my years…otherwise I would be annoyed for no good reason. Maybe it’s a bit of my OCD coming out and saying BOO!

Speaking of OCD, I noticed something about myself yesterday thanks to my Mom…who sometimes unnecessarily points out some of my quirks and thinks they are weird. While I was dishing out dinner onto my plate, my mom noticed that I separated everything and did not have any kind of food touching another. Meanwhile, her plate is just one mushed up pile (ok, not really) of food…they were all touching. Now, to look at someone elses plate and their touching food does not irk me in the least. My plate however, needs to be the way I make it. I like to keep my foods separated on my plate. There are only a couple of things that I will mix together, one of them being corn and mashed potatoes. Sounds weird, but it is freaking delicious. Anyway, I just thought that it was a funny observation my mom made. It made me more self aware.

Alright well, I am going to go and relax a bit and then get to work on my lesson plans and other homework! I’ll probably post again tonight…oddly enough.

Smitten

There is a guy who works at the local office depot who I have become absolutely smitten with. His name is Skip. How cute. Seriously though…I need to find some excuse to go back there asap. Never in my life have I ever had this kind of reaction to someone who I didn’t even know! Sure, I have been attracted to people rather instantaneously, but never to this degree haha. It’s quite pathetic actually – I feel like a little high school-er with a crush on the hottest senior in the school. Ok, really really dumb metaphor. But I can’t think of how else to describe the pathetic-ness of it. Whatever. It’s exciting none the less…but let me tell you this: I haven’t felt that good, for no reason other than my sudden smitten-self, in a really really long time. It’s nice. Even if I never see him again…which I hope wont be the case lol. I swear though, I will not – and I repeat – will not become a stalker. I’ll just have to uh…use my sharpie pens more and wear them out…or break some binders and have to purchase new ones…or something haha.

Anyway, I am oddly excited for tomorrow and I do not know why. It is odd because I have a presentation for my class tomorrow and normally I would be completely anxious about the presentation. Instead, I am feeling incredibly relaxed about it. Which is not like me. Maybe I am just looking forward to getting it over with that much? Or maybe the truth is that I am just that excited and happy about it. I have to say that I am excited about the lesson…if I was actually giving it to a group of first graders. It’s all on place value up to tens and ones. We are using cars and buses to represent the different values so it’s really cute. Hopefully it goes well.

I really need to get to sleep but I am having a hard time with that. It sucks though because I have to wake up in like 5 hours. I suppose I could get away with sleeping until 6:30…I’ll see how I feel. I need to get to Daytona for my class by 8:30 though so my group and I can prepare. We are going first. Yay. Seriously though, I am happy that we are going first. Like I said before…get it over with.

Oh and did I mention that the weather has been fabulous for the past day? I hope this slightly chilled air continues to grace us with its presence. It’s is entirely pleasant. I swear, this time of year makes me want to fall in love. How appropriate. To fall in love during the fall. I never thought of that before…hmm. Whatever, I’m happy with the way things are. It’s nice to know that I can seriously crush on someone and not have to feel guilty about it. Though, if I am going to be in a relationship again, I will only stay in it if I never feel the serious urge to want to have a crush. Ok, that sounds messed up. What I mean is this: I will not remain in a relationship that I am unhappy with. I will not remain in one where I feel the need to feel guilty about having a stupid “celebrity-esque” crush on someone. Who is famous. Or happens to work at Office Depot. Regardless, I am not in a point in my life where I am willing to settle for anything less than I feel that I deserve. My standards are not too high or far fetched. I would say they are pretty average for the most part. And my deal breakers are serious ones involving: no job, jail time and just bad person in general. Also, not having a car is a not so good thing either. That sort of atrocity is only acceptable in NYC or something haha.

By the way…I am going to NYC in January!!! I am SO freaking excited.

Alright…I have blabbed on for far too long now. Adios.

So excited!

On January 4th, I will be headed to NYC until the 9th or 10th. The return date is still up in the air, it all depends on my schooling really . I cannot wait! I am going to be saving every penny that I make until then and have calculated earnings of approximately 1400 from the time I begin officially working until the end of December. That is all based on the assumption that I will be working 12 hrs a week (which is basically a given for the first few months at least due to the business of H&M =D)

My friend is going to be living in the Bronx with her boyfriend and we will be staying with them. It is going to be such a blast and I am so excited! My friend Becka and I will be booking our flights tomorrow. I’ll have to place my request in at H&M as soon as the dates are finalized. I’ll also have to make sure to work every time I am scheduled and to not miss a day unless absolutely necessary (but I am going to push through anything haha)

So, this post sound utterly juvenile to me and it’s bothering me. I am going to go ahead and try to work on some of my lesson plan. I am having a difficult time writing it out for some reason…I hate when that happens.

It’s been a few days…

So this weekend was a lot of fun. I had orientation for H&M and then I proceeded to City Walk where I watched probably my favorite band ever. They are called Orange Avenue. They simply rock…so talented! It’s truly refreshing to come across such a talented group of people when there are so many shit bands out there who can’t actually keep a tune or a beat for that matter. I’ve gone there to watch them before and it’s always a blast. I am going to have to head to the Daytona area and watch them there some time since they play there more frequently.

Anyway, this semester is already zooming by! I can’t believe it…and I have so much to do! I got my TESOL notebook sorted out for the most part over this weekend. There are a couple of missing classes though…I think that the course numbers just changed or something but no one ever notified me of the change, so I need to go and find that information out. Such a pain in the butt I tell you!

My sister and her best friend (who is like another sister to me) purchased their homecoming dresses today! I am so excited for them! They are going to have a blast. They look so pretty too! I took them on a mini photoshoot today and I got some really great pictures. I can’t wait to take them to Ormond…they have this garden place there that will provide the BEST backdrop for gorgeous photos of them. It will be fun, I can already tell.

So…this weekend was filled with other events but nothing worth writing about, really. I’m gonna call it a night. Ciao.

Frazzled :)

Today I was frazzled. All day long. And the fact that I have been sick since Friday did not help the situation. In fact, I believe that this cold attributed to the frazzled-ness. I don’t really feel like getting into it though. I did have a great experience in my internship though . I taught the class their morning message, went over phonemic awareness, read a story and began going over their spelling words. I think that all in all it was successful, but I was definitely feeling a bit haphazard and unsure because I had no time to prepare for it haha. I was kind of thrown in but not at the necessary want of my supervising teacher. She was trying to get into the FAIR testing that she needed to get done so I was more than delighted to help out! It was a great experience and I look forward to having more like that. I just hope that next time I’ll be able to think about it for a minute to make sure I can explain things as nicely as possible to the students.

I think that is my biggest fear or sense of ill-confidence in myself. Is my ways of explaining. I don’t want to confuse the kids!

Anyway, I know I’ll get more of the hang of it as I do it more. That is just how it is!

Alright…I am going to shut my eyes. I need to wake up in six hours. Joy lol.

It feels as though a weight has been lifted from my shoulders…

So, it’s kind of a long title but I couldn’t think of anyway to creatively shorten it. I just decided that leaving it that way would be best because that is basically what it is all summed up to be. That is exactly how it feels. It’s odd because I thought that losing a friend…a friend who I thought was my best friend…would be heartbreaking and saddening, but it actually feels like quite a relief.

The bitch never showed up to my friends 21st birthday party, which was more than enough validation on the very fact that she is no longer my friend. Yes, instead she decided to go to the football game rather than follow through with her initial plans which were made weeks and weeks ago. She’s a bitch. I hope she some how stumbles upon this blog just so she can read this. I just would have loved to have seen her reaction if someone did this to her on her birthday. Good for nothing son of a bitch.

Am I angry? Yes I am and perhaps I should not bother with even wasting the feeling of anger on her, but I can’t help it. When you have invested so much into a friendship only to be slapped in the face is a huge let down. I suppose it was expected of her though. She has never been the kind that was very dependable. She fails at life and unless she changes her views she will continue to fail at life.

So I am better off without her as a friend. Though I can honestly say that she will be the one truly missing out for I was there for her through thick and thin. I can’t say the same for her because she was never truly there for me. I will bend over backwards an do whatever for the ones that I love and knowing this makes me feel better because I will continue to be like this. And she will continue being her pathetic self.

Other than her not showing up, which would have ruined the night anyway, it was a pleasant time. I love my other friends. I know that I could depend on them and they know the same about me. They are what I call true friends and I am so thankful that they are in my life.