So excited!

On January 4th, I will be headed to NYC until the 9th or 10th. The return date is still up in the air, it all depends on my schooling really . I cannot wait! I am going to be saving every penny that I make until then and have calculated earnings of approximately 1400 from the time I begin officially working until the end of December. That is all based on the assumption that I will be working 12 hrs a week (which is basically a given for the first few months at least due to the business of H&M =D)

My friend is going to be living in the Bronx with her boyfriend and we will be staying with them. It is going to be such a blast and I am so excited! My friend Becka and I will be booking our flights tomorrow. I’ll have to place my request in at H&M as soon as the dates are finalized. I’ll also have to make sure to work every time I am scheduled and to not miss a day unless absolutely necessary (but I am going to push through anything haha)

So, this post sound utterly juvenile to me and it’s bothering me. I am going to go ahead and try to work on some of my lesson plan. I am having a difficult time writing it out for some reason…I hate when that happens.

It’s been a few days…

So this weekend was a lot of fun. I had orientation for H&M and then I proceeded to City Walk where I watched probably my favorite band ever. They are called Orange Avenue. They simply rock…so talented! It’s truly refreshing to come across such a talented group of people when there are so many shit bands out there who can’t actually keep a tune or a beat for that matter. I’ve gone there to watch them before and it’s always a blast. I am going to have to head to the Daytona area and watch them there some time since they play there more frequently.

Anyway, this semester is already zooming by! I can’t believe it…and I have so much to do! I got my TESOL notebook sorted out for the most part over this weekend. There are a couple of missing classes though…I think that the course numbers just changed or something but no one ever notified me of the change, so I need to go and find that information out. Such a pain in the butt I tell you!

My sister and her best friend (who is like another sister to me) purchased their homecoming dresses today! I am so excited for them! They are going to have a blast. They look so pretty too! I took them on a mini photoshoot today and I got some really great pictures. I can’t wait to take them to Ormond…they have this garden place there that will provide the BEST backdrop for gorgeous photos of them. It will be fun, I can already tell.

So…this weekend was filled with other events but nothing worth writing about, really. I’m gonna call it a night. Ciao.

Frazzled :)

Today I was frazzled. All day long. And the fact that I have been sick since Friday did not help the situation. In fact, I believe that this cold attributed to the frazzled-ness. I don’t really feel like getting into it though. I did have a great experience in my internship though . I taught the class their morning message, went over phonemic awareness, read a story and began going over their spelling words. I think that all in all it was successful, but I was definitely feeling a bit haphazard and unsure because I had no time to prepare for it haha. I was kind of thrown in but not at the necessary want of my supervising teacher. She was trying to get into the FAIR testing that she needed to get done so I was more than delighted to help out! It was a great experience and I look forward to having more like that. I just hope that next time I’ll be able to think about it for a minute to make sure I can explain things as nicely as possible to the students.

I think that is my biggest fear or sense of ill-confidence in myself. Is my ways of explaining. I don’t want to confuse the kids!

Anyway, I know I’ll get more of the hang of it as I do it more. That is just how it is!

Alright…I am going to shut my eyes. I need to wake up in six hours. Joy lol.

It feels as though a weight has been lifted from my shoulders…

So, it’s kind of a long title but I couldn’t think of anyway to creatively shorten it. I just decided that leaving it that way would be best because that is basically what it is all summed up to be. That is exactly how it feels. It’s odd because I thought that losing a friend…a friend who I thought was my best friend…would be heartbreaking and saddening, but it actually feels like quite a relief.

The bitch never showed up to my friends 21st birthday party, which was more than enough validation on the very fact that she is no longer my friend. Yes, instead she decided to go to the football game rather than follow through with her initial plans which were made weeks and weeks ago. She’s a bitch. I hope she some how stumbles upon this blog just so she can read this. I just would have loved to have seen her reaction if someone did this to her on her birthday. Good for nothing son of a bitch.

Am I angry? Yes I am and perhaps I should not bother with even wasting the feeling of anger on her, but I can’t help it. When you have invested so much into a friendship only to be slapped in the face is a huge let down. I suppose it was expected of her though. She has never been the kind that was very dependable. She fails at life and unless she changes her views she will continue to fail at life.

So I am better off without her as a friend. Though I can honestly say that she will be the one truly missing out for I was there for her through thick and thin. I can’t say the same for her because she was never truly there for me. I will bend over backwards an do whatever for the ones that I love and knowing this makes me feel better because I will continue to be like this. And she will continue being her pathetic self.

Other than her not showing up, which would have ruined the night anyway, it was a pleasant time. I love my other friends. I know that I could depend on them and they know the same about me. They are what I call true friends and I am so thankful that they are in my life.

It’s not OK! :)

Alright so OK! magazine is at it again with their completely fake and outlandish cover stories! The latest? Oh just that Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart (I refuse to denote them to Robsten, personally) made their engagement public at the VMAs. This could not be farther from the truth! I think that it is pretty hilarious that the photo is so utterly photo-shopped though…I mean look at it. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to be able to understand scale. His head looks enormous and his hand looks weird against her. So, I am fully aware that OK! is not the only celeb tabloid magazine who has fabricated both stories and images, but this is ridiculous. I laugh at it every time I see it (or something relating to it.) Are Robert and Kristen together? Not sure but I would love to see it happen. However, is it really any of our business? Not unless they want it to be.

I know that these magazines need to put stories on the cover to sell and make money, no matter what it takes (even if it means their reliability/integrity), but when is enough enough? I wonder how many celebrities’ personal lives are torn to shreds from these apparent accounts that these magazines claim. I know that many of them say that they don’t read them but what about their families and friends? The truth is this: we as humans are incredibly curious. To be quite frank, we are VERY curious of issues that don’t actually matter. And on top of that, a lot of us will believe whatever is handed to us and even when we are proven wrong with solid factual information, we still lean to the side we first believed in.

Anyway, I feel bad for celebs who have to deal with such a sudden flourish of curiosity. They have such a hard time finding peace and quiet and on top of that can’t even go out to see a movie or a show or go to dinner to catch up with some friends without being completely bombarded. It must be entirely frustrating. I suppose that as long as it is worth it for them that is all that truly matters.

I am trying to get some sleep and although my body feels completely exhausted, I cannot bring myself to actually shut my eyes. I know that it would feel lovely and I honestly think I could probably fall asleep rather quickly but I just don’t feel like it yet. It’s a strange mindset. I don’t quite understand it either because well, it’s odd. Who else says that their body feels exhausted and that they could fall asleep easily but they just don’t feel like it yet? Oh and did I mention that this individual is saying this at nearly two in the morning? Yeah, did not think so. Maybe I should just suck it up and shut my eyes. Let sleep take me away for the night.

One more note: The Phantom the Opera is back on Broadway and will be appearing in Orlando within the next few months. I have been waiting YEARS for it to return! I am so excited. I am going to have to go…I am sure my mom will want to accompany me. Though, I would even go by myself if I couldn’t find someone to go with haha. I almost did flips when I saw the commercial today. Yay!

It’s back -.-

So, my cold decided to return in the early morning hours. I was having a rather pleasant dream and then it felt as though my throat was on fire and it jolted me out of my slumber. Such an unfortunate thing really. I hate when that happens. I’m also disappointed because I had arranged to go over to the school I am interning at to begin working on some projects that I need to have completed this current semester. And there are a lot. I had been looking forward to cranking them out today. But of course, I had to get sick again. I blame this one lady who is in my class.

Yesterday, we had to get into small groups and present a portion of the chapter (really annoying). Anyway, I had my part all figured out and the other lady did not. Anyway, this all doesn’t even relate to what I am trying to spit out. Ok so, when I went to go and sit by this woman she proceeds to tell me that she almost did not make it to class because she is ill. Apparently her brother has swine flu (and apparently he was tested and yadda yadda) and she thinks she got it. She claims that she went to the doctor and he gave her to OK to come in, but I don’t know if I can trust her claim. Not that I find her to be an untrustworthy individual, it is just that I don’t really know her.

Anyway, back to what I began rambling about before…so I presented my portion and covered the important topics which were brought up. Then her turn comes around and she missed probably some of the most key and important parts in our section. I can tell that she gets nervous to speak up in front of the class but she totally missed a HUGE chunk. Then, after we sat back down our professor continued to pick up where she left off and talked about what she should have said for a good five minutes or so.

Very frustrating. I knew I should have made a power point…but whatever.

This post is very disjointed and I hate that. Oh well.

H&M :) *excited*

So, I got the job! I am super pumped and excited about it. I start my training on the 25th and I believe the store officially opens on the 15th of October. I am certainly going to be a busy bee! Which is nice for a change…I have been lazy for far too long. I finally decided that I had more than enough free time, even as a full time student, and was dying to make some of my own money. For nearly the past year I have been solely depending on my parents. Don’t get me wrong, it’s nice not to have to worry about a thing, but I hate taking their money and I feel utterly guilty to continually ask them “can I have 20 bucks to go out to eat here?” or “could I have, like, 15 dollars to get a new pair of shoes?” I just feel bad. Plus, my dad has been helping me pay off my credit card each month, which I allowed to get out of hand…although he isn’t aware of that. I only have a 500 dollar limit (thank God, really…and it’s my first and only credit card) and the balance is about…oh 460.00 so yeah. It’s not good and I have been stressing out about that. Now with a job, I no longer will have to stress out because I am being a productive member of society.

It’s amazing how good getting a silly little part time job can make you feel. Apparently they only hired 17 part timers out of a ton of applications so I’m even more excited about the fact that they wanted me to fill one of them.

Anyway, my sister’s 15th birthday is around the corner which means she will be getting her permit. I can’t picture her already learning how to drive! Then, it makes me feel old…even though I know I’m not…because that was me seven years ago. It doesn’t feel like it was that long ago so it is certainly a reality check. I think she’ll do a good job…we just need a car she can drive. We currently have four vehicles in our driveway, plus two classic mustangs in the garage, but she really can’t drive any of them. One of the four driveable cars is an Excursion…which I am even leery to drive…and the rest are all manuals. She will NOT learn stick shift…yet. That’s at least what she says and I can’t completely blame her. I didn’t learn manual until I was about 17 or 18. Her time will come though. I think my parents have made it their personal mission to ensure that all of their three children WILL learn to drive a stick shift eventually and preferably sooner than later. So basically I don’t know what she is going to do about driving a car…

Anyway, I am rambling on. Today was an incredibly busy day and I am utterly pleased to be home sitting at my computer relaxing. It’s very pleasant. I’m going to go and surf around a bit and get into God only knows what haha! Ciao .

Fuck Kanye

Kanye West is a fucking biggot. Enough said.

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Today, I have decided to do more of a list style blog because I feel like there is quite a bit that I want to talk about and do not want it to become overwhelming…for myself .

- So, first order of business: the new New Moon trailer looks absolutely FABULOUS *waves hands in the air* I am disappointed that they changed Edwards Volvo to a black SUV style one. I mean, it’s still a REALLY nice car (one of my faves actually) BUT it isn’t the silver car us twilight fans have come to love. Very minor detail though. New Moon looks EXACTLY as I had imagined it. I hope I can say the same about Eclipse.

- Still haven’t spoken to the ‘friend’ and I have been avoiding contact. I don’t want to talk to her. Like I said, I am done.

- Speaking of that issue, I purchased a portion of my gift for the other other friend. I am very excited about it too. I love to give gifts =D. It’s her 21st birthday, so I purchased her a cute book full of coacktails and, being that she has just moved to New York, I am buying her the ingredients to make a New Yorker =). I am so proud of my idea.

- I had my interview and I think it went well for the most part. I don’t know, we’ll see. I don’t want to get too excited seeing as there were quite a bunch of people who applied. But I am really optimistic and I figure if I don’t get it then apparently I am not meant to have a job right now. School is busy but I am really really wanting a job. So, even if I don’t get hired, I will probably try and get a job somewhere else.

- Oh, and did I mention the New Moon trailer? Oh that’s right I did. I guess I am just that excited about it lol.

- I am stressed about school a bit. I have a bunch of homework to work on tomorrow. Ok, it isn’t that bad but I am just stressed because applications for my internship II are due next Tuesday and I am currently still working on it.

- My friend and her sister went to the movies. Her friend has a new boyfriend that met them there and I told them they both were responsible for giving me a full summary of the movie. I love those girls to death and I don’t know this boyfriend so I want to make sure they behave lol.

- Last, but certainly not least, it has been 8 years now. I still remember where I was when I found out. I was a freshmen in high school and I just got into my science class, which was second period. My teacher went into the connecting room to the other class, at an alarmed rate, and came out with what I though at the time, was a crazy question. She said that two planes crashed into the WTC. Then she turned on the TV and I am sure that everyone else knows what happened through the day. It was a scary thing – it is still scary. God bless those who were immensely affected by this and those who perished and those who are fighting for us still.

Interview

Tomorrow, at 11:30 am, I will be headed to the mall to have my interview with H&M. I am super excited. First of all, I have been waiting YEARS for an H&M to open up by me; I have been saying that we are in need of one here in Central Florida for quite some time. Visiting H&M in NYC is one of the (many) highlights when I take trips up there. So much fun – I love the aesthetics of that store. Their clothing is also to die for and at such great prices! I remember the day I was walking through my drab mall – it was all by chance that I decided to go there to check out the Charlotte Russe one last time to see if that less-than-ideal store would have something I needed last minute – and I came across the place where Charlotte Russe belonged. Stretched out on either side for…well a HUGE chunk of the mall (at least four large stores across) was covered with an enourmous H&M in white and red. It was as if the heavens were shining down on this very sign which read “COMING FALL 2009″; I swear I heard the angels singing like “AHH!” Anyway, months went by and I was determined to apply for a sales position there. I have been looking for a part time job for quite some time and the prefect store just decided to appear right before my eyes. So months and months went by. I would check their jobs websites once a day until finally, on August 26th, applications were now being accepted. And now I am going for an interview tomorrow. I am very excited. If you can’t already tell by this pathetic and utterly ridiculous blog post.

Anyway, I have just been struggling with what to wear. I went out shopping and bought these pants but I wore them for an hour and it was terrible. They are ill fitted now and make me look WAY fatter than I actually am. I am sorry, but I want my pants to look good on me…not make me look like a sack o’ lard. Bleh.

Ok, this blog is filled with superficial-ness and that is ending right…here.

Here is something interesting to look at later:
http://www.bestinterestingnews.com/2009/03/20/post_396/