Smitten
There is a guy who works at the local office depot who I have become absolutely smitten with. His name is Skip. How cute. Seriously though…I need to find some excuse to go back there asap. Never in my life have I ever had this kind of reaction to someone who I didn’t even know! Sure, I have been attracted to people rather instantaneously, but never to this degree haha. It’s quite pathetic actually – I feel like a little high school-er with a crush on the hottest senior in the school. Ok, really really dumb metaphor. But I can’t think of how else to describe the pathetic-ness of it. Whatever. It’s exciting none the less…but let me tell you this: I haven’t felt that good, for no reason other than my sudden smitten-self, in a really really long time. It’s nice. Even if I never see him again…which I hope wont be the case lol. I swear though, I will not – and I repeat – will not become a stalker. I’ll just have to uh…use my sharpie pens more and wear them out…or break some binders and have to purchase new ones…or something haha.
Anyway, I am oddly excited for tomorrow and I do not know why. It is odd because I have a presentation for my class tomorrow and normally I would be completely anxious about the presentation. Instead, I am feeling incredibly relaxed about it. Which is not like me. Maybe I am just looking forward to getting it over with that much? Or maybe the truth is that I am just that excited and happy about it. I have to say that I am excited about the lesson…if I was actually giving it to a group of first graders. It’s all on place value up to tens and ones. We are using cars and buses to represent the different values so it’s really cute. Hopefully it goes well.
I really need to get to sleep but I am having a hard time with that. It sucks though because I have to wake up in like 5 hours. I suppose I could get away with sleeping until 6:30…I’ll see how I feel. I need to get to Daytona for my class by 8:30 though so my group and I can prepare. We are going first. Yay. Seriously though, I am happy that we are going first. Like I said before…get it over with.
Oh and did I mention that the weather has been fabulous for the past day? I hope this slightly chilled air continues to grace us with its presence. It’s is entirely pleasant. I swear, this time of year makes me want to fall in love. How appropriate. To fall in love during the fall. I never thought of that before…hmm. Whatever, I’m happy with the way things are. It’s nice to know that I can seriously crush on someone and not have to feel guilty about it. Though, if I am going to be in a relationship again, I will only stay in it if I never feel the serious urge to want to have a crush. Ok, that sounds messed up. What I mean is this: I will not remain in a relationship that I am unhappy with. I will not remain in one where I feel the need to feel guilty about having a stupid “celebrity-esque” crush on someone. Who is famous. Or happens to work at Office Depot. Regardless, I am not in a point in my life where I am willing to settle for anything less than I feel that I deserve. My standards are not too high or far fetched. I would say they are pretty average for the most part. And my deal breakers are serious ones involving: no job, jail time and just bad person in general. Also, not having a car is a not so good thing either. That sort of atrocity is only acceptable in NYC or something haha.
By the way…I am going to NYC in January!!! I am SO freaking excited.
Alright…I have blabbed on for far too long now. Adios.
